Home Is Where The Start Is

Let's talk about this whole life coach thing. Now I'm into it about a month and I can honestly say it is worth every penny. Here's how it works: For a monthly fee, I get "coached" for 45 mins twice a month over the phone. I met my coach in person for our initial session which was 2 hours of intensive talking about myself. Totally draining! You might think that 45 mins on the phone is not enough time to delve into what you need to delve into, but let me tell you, my coach is uber-efficient at getting out of me what she needs to know in order to direct me to the next goal. On the real. In order to facilitate this efficiency, I fill out a "call focus form" and email it the night before our session. In it I answer questions about what progress I've made on my previous goals, what obstacles I've faced, what things I'm procrastinating about (because we all have something), and what I'm happy about. This is a worthwhile exercise in itself because it allows me to really reflect on my life and be completely honest with myself. This is also accompanied by a glass of wine. My coach uses the call focus form to do just that: focus the call on the pressing issues. I have to admit when I call her and she says "There's a lot of good stuff here!" I feel a mix of pride and embarrassment. Pride because I'm a perfectionist and want to do well at everything including analyzing myself. Embarrassment because I didn't realize I had so much "stuff". There's a lot of work to be done people. Most use coaching for 3 to 6 months and then feel comfortable taking their show on the road. I have no idea how long this process will take for me.

This experiment started out as a way for me to develop the skills necessary to be successful and happy at work. However, in quality improvement lingo, I've found it necessary to perform a root cause analysis and drill down to the very source of my habits and patterns of reaction. What I've uncovered so far is the need for a fundamental shift in my way of thinking. We don't leave our patterns at the door when we come home. Who you are at work is who you are at home and vice versa. In order to change how you think and behave you have to start where you are most real. And that place, for most of us, is home.